A punch

I wonder if my intuition is trying to be heard. They always say just go with your gut. Is this the same thing? It's my gut alright.. But it feels a lot more like a punch straight to the gut than anything else. It's not literal pain like a punch would cause, but one big tight knot and it feels very uneasy. Its always there. Sometimes I am distracted by other things so its not so noticeable. But lately it's getting a lot tighter and I always know it's there. It's uncomfortable. I wish it would go away.
I have thought about just sleeping a lot so I wouldn't have to face it but I am a mom so that option is pretty much out. I know why it's there. And I think the only way to fix it would entail alot of changes. Some that are in my ability to change and some that I have given to God to help me with.
I think the most important thing is that I remember that it is NOT that bad no matter what my gut says. I am so blessed in so many ways. I don't want to lose sight of that . These times when my kids are young, I am young, these times are fleeting. I would hate to pass it by because I spent it all trying to sleep it away or waiting for the next day, for times to be better.


“Never ignore a gut feeling, but never believe that it's enough.” Robert Heller